I told you I had a lot to get out today.

Quite a few of you have inquired as to the whereabouts of The Fat Man Chronicles. Clearly I’m here, presumably still fat, yet there are no more posts detailing the weekly anguish that only a scale can meter out.

The answer is simple. The reasoning is not.

TFMC is on hold right now. I’m am still trying to be good and trying to avoid fast food and other pitfalls (though admittedly not quite as vigilantly) but I found it quite hard to focus. If you’ll remember, I began the idea of TFMC just before Aidan arrived. It was a time full of hope, excitement…sleep. With his birth came chaos that I could never have predicted.

Just before Jaime went back to work, when Aidan was about 2 months old, I was still hopeful that TFMC could be successful. We had settled into a predictable routine and although the weather was still too cold for exercise, I had visions of being able to walk and run after work. When Jaime went back to work those visions were dashed.

Life is now very crazy. Jaime’s schedule, Aidan’s ever shifting sleep schedule, and the dog’s training all demand time and focus that I would otherwise spend on losing weight and living better.

You’ll notice that I said TFMC is on hold, suspension, not dead. I still dislike being as big and as out of shape as I am intensely. For me, the only way out of that is to focus on it and beat it back with determination. Unfortunately, I’ve not been able to find that focus and I believe its because I’ve got bigger things to worry about right now.

I now have hope that Jaime’s new, regular schedule will help us develop a more normal routine that will allow me to exercise regularly and spend more time planning our meals. Instead of just getting by we can do a bit more living.

I expect that within the next two weeks I will be able to refocus on TFMC. Although it may restart as spotty posts about a recent round of exercise or a meals I’ve made, I will try to post again. So stay with me as I plan to come back!